Aku Pasti Bisa

Mentari terbenam temani dalam kesendirianku Temani aku dalam kepedihan ini Ku bertahan Mentari terbenam beri semangat baru tuk jiwaku Beri kicauan merdu tuk hidupku ini Ku bertahan Aku pasti bisa Menikmati semua dan menghadapinya Aku yakin pasti bisa Mentari terbenam beri semangat baru tuk jiwaku Beri kicauan merdu tuk hidupku ini Ku bertahan Aku pasti bisa Menikmati semua dan menghadapinya Aku yakin pasti bisa Aku pasti bisa Menikmati semua dan menghadapinya Aku yakin pasti bisa Aku ingin lepaskan seluruh bebanku Dan ku jalani hidupku dengan senyuman Aku pasti bisa Menikmati semua dan menghadapinya Aku yakin pasti bisa Dan ku jalani hidupku dengan senyuman iKainheRe :::: tHe fRienDLy kinDLy cHeeRy giRL ::::

Kesedihanku

Sepinya hari yang ku lewati Tanpa ada dirimu menemani Sunyi ku rasa dalam hidupku Tak mampu ku tuk melangkah Masih ku ingat indah senyummu Yang selalu membuatku mengenangmu Terbawa aku dalam sedihku Tak sadar kini kau tak di sini Engkau masih yang terindah Indah di dalam hatiku Mengapa kisah kita berakhir Yang seperti ini Masih ku ingat indah senyummu Yang selalu membuatku mengenangmu Terbawa aku dalam sedihku Tak sadar kini kau tak di sini Engkau masih yang terindah Indah di dalam hatiku Mengapa kisah kita berakhir Yang seperti ini Yang seperti ini Engkau masih yang terindah Indah di dalam hatiku Mengapa kisah kita berakhir Yang seperti ini Hampa kini yang ku rasa Menangis pun ku tak mampu Hanya sisa kenangan terindah Dan kesedihanku iKainheRe :::: tHe fRienDLy kinDLy cHeeRy giRL ::::

Lebih Indah

Saat ku tenggelam dalam sendu Waktupun enggan untuk berlalu Ku berjanji tuk menutup pintu hatiku Entah untuk siapapun itu Semakin ku lihat masa lalu Semakin hatiku tak menentu Tetapi satu sinar terangi jiwaku Saat ku melihat senyummu Dan kau hadir merubah segalanya Menjadi lebih indah Kau bawa cintaku setinggi angkasa Membuatku merasa sempurna Dan membuatku utuh tuk menjalani hidup Berdua denganmu selama-lamanya Kaulah yang terbaik untukku Kini ku ingin hentikan waktu Bila kau berada di dekatku Bunga cinta bermekaran dalam jiwaku Kan ku petik satu untukmu Dan kau hadir merubah segalanya Menjadi lebih indah Kau bawa cintaku setinggi angkasa Membuatku merasa sempurna Dan membuatku utuh tuk menjalani hidup Berdua denganmu selama-lamanya Kaulah yang terbaik untukku Kaulah yang terbaik untukku Ku percayakan seluruh hatiku padamu Kasihku satu janjiku kaulah yang terakhir bagiku Dan kau hadir merubah segalanya Menjadi lebih indah Kau bawa cintaku setinggi angkasa Membuatku merasa sempurna Dan membuatku utuh tuk menjalani hidup Berdua denganmu selama-lamanya Kaulah yang terbaik untukku iKainheRe :::: tHe fRienDLy kinDLy cHeeRy giRL ::::

Sorry Is Not Enaugh...

Tears are coming when I'm still on office.. |-) Shall he know how much pain I felt so he doesn't angry? No.. He don't need to know. Nobody won't know. Damn shit tears!!! iKainheRe :::: tHe fRienDLy kinDLy cHeeRy giRL ::::

Umbrella - Rihanna

[Jay-Z] Ahuh Ahuh (Yea Rihanna) Ahuh Ahuh (Good girl gone bad) Ahuh Ahuh (Take three... Action) Ahuh Ahuh No clouds in my stones Let it rain, I hydroplane in the bank Coming down with the Dow Jones When the clouds come we gone, we Rocafella We fly higher than weather In G5's are better, You know me, In anticipation, for precipitation. Stack chips for the rainy day Jay, Rain Man is back with little Ms. Sunshine Rihanna where you at? [Rihanna] You have my heart And we'll never be worlds apart May be in magazines But you'll still be my star Baby cause in the dark You can't see shiny cars And that's when you need me there With you I'll always share Because [Chorus] When the sun shines, we'll shine together Told you I'll be here forever Said I'll always be a friend Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end Now that it's raining more than ever Know that we'll still have each other You can stand under my umbrella You can stand under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh) These fancy things, will never come in between You're part of my entity, here for Infinity When the war has took it's part When the world has dealt it's cards If the hand is hard, together we'll mend your heart Because [Chorus] When the sun shines, we'll shine together Told you I'll be here forever Said I'll always be a friend Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end Now that it's raining more than ever Know that we'll still have each other You can stand under my umbrella You can stand under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh) You can run into my arms It's OK don't be alarmed Come here to me There's no distance in between our love So go on and let the rain pour I'll be all you need and more Because [Chorus] When the sun shines, we'll shine together Told you I'll be here forever Said I'll always be a friend Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end Now that it's raining more than ever Know that we'll still have each other You can stand under my umbrella You can stand under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh) It's raining Ooh baby it's raining Baby come here to me Come here to me It's raining Oh baby it's raining iKainheRe :::: tHe fRienDLy kinDLy cHeeRy giRL ::::

Coffee Jazz [CHAPTER 1]

[PART 1]

Here I am, with a cup of warm capuccino float. I didn't touch it till now. A boy and a girl there made me wanna follow them. He is seeing a girl whom sitting in front of her laptop in the corner of this longue. Her beautiful eyes shine love. I sure that. Everybody see then they also would know that love shine from its. Its so familiar for me because that kind of shine also was mine of my x'girlfriend.

The girl, made he wanna come to and say hi. He just wanna. No reason. Now he is standing, with his cup of cappucino float, near the beauty girl,

"may I join?"

The girl up her head and seeing who talk with her.

"ok,"

A short answer given, made he gives his right hand, "I am Mezza. Mezza El-Chienne,"

"Luna. Luna Chastivyra,"

The girl replied, not with her hand but with her little smile, I don't know what she said but seems she told him her name. After that, she back to looking at her laptop. Seems she is typing something. She didn't say anything after told him her name. Just Mezza sitted in front of her just now. He is silent, look at the girl.

"busy?" Mezza said,

The girl is not answering, she just little smiling with still looking at her laptop, then continue typing.

"seems looks so interseting," Mezza asked after sometimes.

"what?" the girl is looking at him.

Oh... the girl said "what" in my language, swear I was't know that she could undertand my language. If you see her, I sure you also would thought the girl came from other country. Seems Mezza also did.

"your activity," Mezza said. "wow anyway you could speak my language... I thought you..." he didn't continue his sentences because the girl responed,

"oh, yes I could" the girl continue, "typing. I am typing," still with my language.

Ah. So cold girl she is. I sure Mezza know that she is typing. But what typing is it that he wanna know. Right now their conversation is in my language.

"sorry..."

"what?"

"yah sorry but I am not no welcome to you... I just..."

"oh its ok."

"I just... just like in the ground of the sea."

"what?" Mezza stares deep into the girl

"since yesterday. how your feel when you are in the ground of the sea?" the girl asked seriously.

"dark... hard breathing... because you would feel something hit your chest which is make you hard breathing with the most minimum oxygen there. feel so cold too... hard moving your body... feel so weak.. that your feel?" Mezza answered

"exactly!" she is looking at Mezza with not-believe-stare-eyes.

"my x'girlfriend ever told me that,"

"what?"

"yah, was she tell me, 'I am in the ground of the sea' then she told me that I told you about how the feeling in the ground of the sea...."

"oh..."

Just that came from her as answer. I know sure that the girl also could see a wet eyes of Mezza. Ya, Mezza's eyes wet. The tears sparkling, maybe wanna fall right now.

"sorry what happened," the girl asking

"just missing her..."

"where is she"

"she... is no longer in this world.. she... she leave me forever three years ago,"

"oh sorry..." I know the girl spechless. So do I. But Mezza is continuing,

"do you know your eyes... was her mine. your voice after we talked, I sure that also was her mine. then you talked about ground of the sea... totally I remembered her just now. since first time I saw her, I couldn't see other girl. all in her, made me couldn't see other girl, until now,"

A bip came from my laptop. Right now I got an email. I am checking.

Thank u for ur spirit. I knw ma life is precious 'cause I hv friends such kind of u. Thank u fr knew ur place. U knw all, I told u all. Um sorry if I just can say thanks. But um really thanks for this. Thanks fr remind me to be forceful gal then um to be. Thanks for told me tat um great, tat um strong, thanks for removed ma tears. I love him, n u rite tat I must be strong. Now um hea, in his country, ur country too na. Um in Dhaka. I knw u thr, in different city. Sorry jst tell u rite nw. I jst arrived this afternoon. I even didn't told him tat um wanna come hea. I jst gonna meet him this nite.

That email, from my friend. She is most strong girl that I ever know. No other could be like her I sure. Her love is so strong. I am not remember how much boy that I knew they propose her but no one could take a place on it even just little. She never give other place and chance to them to do. Her life, heart, mind, and soul, is just given for his boyfriend. That what made me wanna always be beside her. To make her always strong, make her keep standing, remind her to still keep breathing, everytime she felt she fall. I have not meet her yet, I do not know her face yet, but I could imagine she is a nice girl.

I am replying the email,

Wew. I am in Dhaka. Came from Khulna last night. Where are you?

I am waiting her reply. I am seeing Mezza, tears falling down in his cheek.

"I am sorry to hear that," the girl said.

"I am sorry but I won't make you mind this, sorry I told you this all," Mezza said then drink his cappucino float.

"Its ok.. nice to meet you," the girl said then she is looking at her laptop again, then she is typing.

I thought she finished typing because she is now looking at Mezza, about two seconds, then move slowly her head to see other side of this room. She is seeing the big aquarium. She silent for sometimes before say,

"giving up doesn't always mean you are weak. sometimes it means that you are strong enaugh to let go. are you think so?" she now looking at Mezza.

Mezza is smiling, "don't ever give uup if you still want to try, don''t ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry. don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know. don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go..."

I could see that the girl is taking long breathe after hear what Mezza said.

"we enjoy warmth because we have been cold. we appreciate light because we have been in darkness. by the same token, we could experience joy because we have known sadness," the girl continue, "seems you still not let her go,"

"to find a girl just like him your chances are so few. my eyes sore from crying. within her, I lose my self," Mezza said.

"but without her, you find yourself wanting to be lost again, aren't you?"

"you all right,"

What are they talking made me didn't see that I got new email. Again from her.

um in Radison. lounge. with purple cloths grey jeans. only me with. find me.

Just one second after read I know the girl in front of Mezza, is she... Luna... my close friend.....



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Are You Sure You Care?

Saya emang sengaja ngejauh
kalo emangnya care, peduli, dan bener sayang sama saya seperti apa katanya,
dia gga akan menjadi jauh
seharusnya gga ikutan ngejauh dan berubah

Saya cuma pengen tau ajj
sebatas apa dan sejauh apa komitmennya sama apa yang dia ucapin
saya gga ambil pusing
dengan yang namanya love in the first sight
apalah

if you love someone, that someone couldn't be replaced ;) is it?

Let's see the result of this test! :)



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Just The Name of Comfort

Hmmmm..
no more than just a feel of comfort
and I won't more
ya
karna emang ini sebates rasa nyaman ajj
dan nyambung
udda
no more

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Kau Tak Pernah Kehilangan Sesuatu yang Tak Pernah Menjadi Milikmu

Jangan mainin perasaan orang lain hanya karena kau tak yakin dengan perasaanmu sendiri.

Terkadang senyum bukan berarti seseorang tersebut bahagia, atu marah, atau apapun, hanya saja dengan itu lebih mudah daripada menjelaskan.

Tak perlu untuk gga rela kehilangan sesuatu yang tak pernah menjadi milikmu. Akupun sadar itu. Aku bukan kehilangan karna aku tak pernah memiliki. Aku hanya sempat merasakan. Dan itu sudah cukup... cukup.. untuk merasa.. tak ingin kehilangan.. =)

Ego Tak Kan Melihat Sebuah Niat Baik

Hi Guys..

Kau pernah berniat baik tapi tak dihiraukan?

Semalam tadinya dengan aku minta maaf aku berharap semua bisa clear, dan gada lagi salah paham, dan aku bisa jadi tau letak kesalahanku dimana. Nyatanya dia gga bisa diajak baik. Moco ketikane malah marai mbrebes mili njup akhire nangis tenan 15 menit ra mandeg... Gampang yah nyakitin perasaan orang yang bahkan gga punya salah apa-apa padamu...

Aku menyerah...
God please safe him always in happiness. My pray belong to him. Wish all the best for him.

Sebaiknya Bagaimana

Dia memang hanya dia
Ku slalu memikirkannya
Tak pernah ada habisnya
Benar dia benar hanya dia
Ku slalu menginginkannya
Belaian dari tangannya
Mungkin hanya dia
Harta yang paling terindah
Di perjalanan hidupku
Sejak derap denyut nadiku
Mungkin hanya dia
Indahnya sangat berbeda
Ku haus merindukannya


Ku ingin kau tahu isi hatiku
Kaulah yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Tak ada yang lain hanya kamu
Tak pernah ada takkan pernah ada

Benar dia benar hanya dia
Ku slalu menginginkannya
Belaian dari tangannya

Mungkin hanya dia
indahnya sangat berbeda
Ku haus merindukannya

Ku ingin kau tahu isi hatiku
Kaulah yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Tak ada yang lain hanya kamu
Tak pernah ada takkan pernah ada
Ku ingin kau selalu di fikiranku
Kau yang selalu larut dalam darahku
Tak ada yang lain Hanya kamu
Tak pernah ada takkan pernah ada

Tulisan diatas ditulis dengan hati.. itu juga yang akhirnya membuatku mengalahkan perasaanku sendiri, atas dirinya. Dirinya yang mungkin sekarang tak lagi menghiraukan aku.

Yap, gada gunanya kau berharap atas seseorang yang telah manjadi milik orang lain, seseorang yang telah memiliki seseorang, seseorang yang masih mengharapkan seseorang, dan seseorang yang masih belum bisa melupakan seseorang... rasa yang ada padamu akan membuatmu tidak egois. Bukankah kau tidak perlu memilikinya untuk bisa mendoakannya, kau tidak perlu memilikinya untuk memastikannya bahagia, kau tak perlu memilikinya untuk memberinya perhatian penuh... Kau bisa melakukan yang terbaik untuknya tanpa memilikinya, disitulah ada cinta yang sebenernya... Tuhan Maha Tahu.

Perbincanganku dengan seorang kakak yang merupakan kakak paling aku sayang dan satu-satunya kakak yang aku punya saat ini,

"tantik gpp pan?"

"gpp atas?"

"dgn perubahan yg tjd ma dia"

"teros kalo papa ya aku gga isa napa2in toh"

"maksude gini,"

"gmn:-#"

"yen trus g diperhatiin, dy g care lg, nganggep tantik dah g lg istimewa. . . tantik bs trima?"

aku pengen jawab "nggak..." karena air mataku menetes saat itu dan gga bisa berhenti setelah 5 menit, tapi aku malah jawab,

"gpp.. gga perlu berharap sm orang yg punya pasangan, orang yg nunggu seseorg, or orang yg blm bs lupain seseorg"

"bener"

"jujur ya, sy nangkep tantik sdikit kehilangan dia,"

"perhatian, care na dy.." lanjutnya

"sppun kalo di posisi aku psti kehilangan kak.. secara drastis bgt dia berubahnya"

"kek blm bs trima jg saat dicuekin"

"gga kak... bkn gga trima.. gada hak buat gga trima.."

"sedih dan kehilangan saja brarti"

"moga aku bs cepet ikhlas kak..."

"amin"

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Kami Wa Watashi O Kiite Kudasai

Tokiniwa,-shin wa, taiyō o sakujo shi,-u ya kaminari o kowaga~tsu motarasuga, sore wa anata no utsukushii niji o motarasu kami ni natta

Watashi wa dekimasendeshita watashi wa kare ga betsu no dengen ni nomi idō o sanshō shite kudasai suru hitsuyō ga aru baai.... Kami wa kare ni watashi kara no aisatsu o tsutaeru, watashi wa kare o ketsujō...

Terkadang Tuhan menghilangkan matahari, dan mendatangkan hujan dan petir yang membuatmu takut, tapi ternyata Tuhan mendatangkan pelangi yang indah untukmu

Aku tak sanggup jika harus melihatnya pergi hanya untuk berubah menjadi lain... Tuhan sampaikan salam dari aku untuk dia, aku merindukan dia...

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Ik wil dat hij blijft als voorheen.....

Ik wil dat hij blijft als voorheen.. :(

Ik moet u vragen om altijd naast mij?
niet stil zijn, zeg ik dat iemand die zo kan ik u uitleggen....


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Sahabatku dan Wanita Itu

Hai.

Aku punya kisah...

Aku punya seorang sahabat.
Dia telah berkeluarga, saat ini anaknya berumur 6 tahun dan 7 tahun.
Dan dia baru saja 'putus' dengan temenku yang lain.
Hehe...
Sahabatku, temenku, dan istri sahabatku itu saling mengenal lho. hebat yah. bisa akur. istrinya emang gatau menahu soal hubungan antara sahabatku dengan temenku. tapi cuma curiga.
waw very make me shocked pas awal-awal aku tau bahwa sahabatku itu udda berkeluarga.
Dia gga pernah cerita sih, katanya dia kira aku udda tau %) haft

Let Me Know

Guys..

bingung...
ada salah apa yah..
sampe kemaren aku pvt gga dibales..
dan set busy after 10 mins aku pvt..
haft
really sorry if I did any mistake to you dear, but I really neva did something..
let me know.. what is my mistake..

and did you know Guys, I stayed away from this ppl just only because I won't disturb his heart... which is couldn't forget her (still couldn't maybe). and seems he would neva wanna know 'bout this. exactly I won't he know.

Can anyone tell me what must I do in this matter...?